Is It ever the right time? 

Mr S and I have always said we wanted to extend our family, we put these plans on hold when my son Charlie fell ill as we wanted to dedicate our time to charlie’s care and helping our other three cope with the ins and outs of having a sick sibling.My four baby’s 

Almost two years after losing charlie we have decided to go ahead with our baby plans with a start date for ttc after our summer holiday this year or maybe ever a holiday baby, but this raises the question.  Is it the right time?     When is it right?     How do we know?  Not that it should matter, but I can’t help but think what other people will think.

My mum and dad went thought the same loss 4 months before they conceived me. Understandability everyone is different when it comes to this decision, it doesn’t mean that your still not grieving or that you are trying to replace your much loved child. 

Now we have made the decision, how will we feel when baby is on the way, this I suppose is something we can’t answer until the time and it’s scary it’s shouldn’t matter what other people think but after spending all my young adult life in a controlling abusive relationship I still find it hard not to question every decision I make. 
With all these questions we might never know the answer and am sure we are not the only couple that has been here and I would like to think I could help someone in this same decision by laying my heart on the line because it’s not often talked about. 

What a week! 

Our new windows got fitted this week, no more rotten wood framed single glazing now we have lovely new sash upvc double glazed windows.   View from the kitchen shame about the scaffolding Our new master bedroom window 

The week started off with taking blinds and curtains down and pulling out our old falling apart utility room i also packed valuables away for safety. 

Thursday came and so did the window fitters i sent my husband off to work and the oldest two to school and emilia the cats and i hid upstairs out the way. With Mr S calling and texting what seemed like every 5 minutes checking up (it must of been killing him as he is a joiner/builder). WOW the guys worked none stop and got all 10 windows out and back in by 12.30 when i took emilia to nursery and they where complete finished by 3.30. They got the husband seal of approval when he got home. View without the scaffolding

We moved in to our house back in september 2015 and in that time we have ripped out the pink bathroom suit renewed the kitchen, and knocked down and rebuild a wall upstairs to make a extra bedroom, redecorate all the kids rooms and hall, stairs and landing. Pulled out the utility room and had windows replaced we have also started to strip back the old doors. It’s slowly starting to look like how we want it.  The windows have been the biggest scariest part we have done so far but after the the guys finished you would of never known they where here apart from the scaffolding and beautiful new windows. What a difference i was taking to a friend and said “i wasn’t aware of how much noise we where hearing until the now and i can’t hear it” and the warmth is amazing and to be able to enjoy our view without the constant condensation. This is the house from the sale brochure .Heres some of the work so far 


The things I like

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Well first post here it goes,  why not let you get to know me better am 29 i love all things makeup

I also have two cats smudge and leia and currently have 4 kittens one of whom we are keeping and have named him yoda (can you tell i live with a star wars fan).

I love food and enjoy cooking and baking, music, singing and restoring our home

We are at present doing up our home that we purchased in september 2015 it was very out dated but fell in love with it on viewing, it had a pink bathroom suite yes! PINK the kitchen was all sorts of brown and a pink and red hallway we have updated them areas and this week we are having our old windows replaced with new double glazed ones and we are all very excited no more single glazing!